It has been a while since I last wrote, looking at it now I see it's been about a month. A lot has happened, and not, in that time period. The most important thing to have occurred is taking the step to get the help that I needed for my mental health. I also turned 30 and made a conscious decision to grow up and act like a 30 year old man with my mental and emotional stability instead of acting like a 12 year old pre-pubescent boy, squeaking voice included. There have been trips to see a psychiatrist for medication, counseling both group and individual, and coming to terms with my own demons by acknowledging I can't change what has happened. To be honest I've grown more since 2018 than I have in the last 30 years as a human being. I still have a very very long way to go though, so no there won't be any need for applause or congratulations just yet.
Seeking employment as a web developer has been my primary goal directly behind "owning my shit". A conversation with my aunt while in Denver for ElixirDaze led me to start looking for non-profit organizations I could go to work for to start building professional experience. A tweet led me to an opportunity with a team of developers for refactoring the High Fives Foundation website.
Through a serendipitous chance I was contacted about freelance work on another non-profit product through the company BothOfUs. I am very happy and abundantly grateful when I say:
It has been quite a journey just to get to this point in my career as a web developer. I remember sitting on the shore of Elliot Bay in Seattle watching the sunset nearly 2 years ago when I made the decision to pursue web development after leaving my job. I wrote the following words in my journal this morning before signing my contract to keep things in perspective and make a pact to myself:
I will be grateful for the opportunity and make the most of it to grow as a professional, a developer, and a person.
I'm cramming on VueJS now so I can jump in and begin contributing as fast as possible and I must say I am digging on Vue 🎉 😎. There is a lot I want to do and have planned outside of work and still searching for a full-time developer gig. Most of all I keep working on me and my mindset. I still have so much to learn and get better at with myself, it's important to me because of the damage I've done to myself and my relationships. Employment is a positive step in the right direction and will fuel my stride moving forward. Be thankful, grateful, and keep on grinding for what you want in life.
~ Cody 🚀